Me, my fear

I actually forgot,
bad memories left me,
I felt calm and peace
so deep within.

I only cried, curled on my bed,
begging God to help me understand.
Tears damped my sheets,
I could not breath.

That is when I felt the peace,
a silent calm that filled my mind.
I cannot change the past,
but I can leave it behind.

Still as I lay on my bed
I remember the pain and tears,
that choked my throat,
and made me, my fear.