Regret

When you hear someone tell you that you'll regret it, you don't think much at the time .
Not knowing that it would come back to you with a lie.

A lie to yourself that you have trouble to admit.
A lie to yourself that you think is nothing but shit.

But over time it grows,
from denying
to Danial
and from Danial to depression.

And from that point there's really nothing you can do.

You keep living life like it's OK
When nothing really is,
But your scared to speak what you want to say.

Your stuck in a rut and there's no way out.
So you can't move forward but it's to late to turn back.

All I can do is sit and wonder how I could have done things different.
How things could've been.
But then,
It still can't help me with the mess I'm in now.

There's no one I can talk to, I'm all alone.
All I have is my mind, but that doesn't seem to listen well.
It's like I'm in my own shell
But without the protection.
The heat you get is so hot it's like living in hell.
So many people talk around.
It's hard enough to have the security I had once that now I'm without.

And what's worse is the most is that you know your strong enough to fix it.
But your just so scared to do that.

To scared to make the the future so that I could make the fight choice.
That will guide me the right way.

But not all wishes come true do they?
Not really anytime in my days........