Can't Remember My Words...

I'm sick of myself,
I wish I were gone.
"no more boys,
well not for a while."
But just to day,
I was wrong,
and made out with a boy,
I couldn't be strong.
It was for a weak reason,
I felt I needed to please him.
Yeah, he was hot,
but too much of a big-shot.
At least that was all,
but it was my promises fall.