Another bruise

I'm crying again...
all the screaming hitting and fighting
its been going on ever sense i was ten
and this is why I'm righting

last night i sat with my razor blade in hand ready to slit my wrists
but... i couldn't let go
so i just clenched my fists
some part of my mind just kept saying NO Krystal NO!

but all i get for living is another bruise
i don't know what i did wrong they just took out the belt
i knew from the start that i was gonna loose
and no one will ever know how bad iv always felt

it just hurts so bad
i really just don't want to stay
its like no matter what i do deep down inside ill always be sad
but tomorrow ill put on a happy face cover up the welts and pretend like every things okay...

this is what really happens... votes/comments