Waiting for the mending day

There is this secret
Deep inside my broken soul
Its eating me away
Its eating to my core

Every time i lay my head down
Every time i close my eyes
I get this horrid flashback
Even though it was so long ago i can still hear those deathly cries

Every night i awake screaming
From the same nightmare that haunts me
I can see him hit her again and again
This vision is locked deep in my memory

This secret has destroyed me
It has caused me to be more messed up than i had intended
i get my sick pleasure from all those razors
And I'm still waiting on the day my heart is completely mended

*not sure comment please i don't really like it