If you feel that is the case, please reconsider and at least open-mindedly accept advice from one who has actually been in the same boat, and chose to jump off. Sticking to this boat metaphor, lets just say I nearly drowned without my family there. I know it may sound duperficial, but you don't really know what you had until you have it no longer. Consider reading this to your family and having an open-ended discussion, giving everyone a chance to express their true feelings on the matter. perhaps your family structure doesn't allow for this, and I'm out of my league, but whatever the case, I hat seeing others choosing or considering the same paths I've travelled, and if I can share the knowledge of experience, than I'll at least try. As fas as the literature is concerned, impressive piece of work with a slightly broken tone. Maybe the emotion portrays this layered poem, which seems to sink further and further into aversion as it progresses. Good work, sad poem, poignant prose overall.

very good poem, your family do love you.... well done