Immersed In Death

by Katran   Mar 31, 2005


I wish someone would just
Came and take control
I've lost my body and mind
Along with my heart and soul

So many thoughts
Run through my head
I hate myself beyond belief
God I wish I were dead

So what am I living for
Why do I continue to breathe?
I despise what I've become
I loathe my eternal being

But I have to block this out
I have to ignore the hate
I have to pretend to live
Even though each second is pain

I'm supposed to fight the disease
But how can beat myself?
My only choice is to become
An unfeeling shell

I'm forced to deny reality
It would be too much to bare
I know that I've created
This life that's so unfair

I detest every waking moment
And crave the elusive sleep
The precious hours when
I don't have to think

I know they think they're helping
By telling me to fight
But what they don't know
Is that no matter what I'll die

If I fight I may still be
Living and breathing, yes
But inside I'm already
Deeply immersed in death

(this barely scratches the surface of how I really feel, but I can\'t find words to describe what\'s really going on inside my head.)

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  • 18 years ago

    by anasha

    Mmm.. i could never find the right words to describe how i felt about life.. but then one day, i saw the news and this terrorist, he sat there and he obviously couldn't speak much english but he said something, that's haunted me to this day.. he said .. ' i want death, like you want life' .. it was amazing.. because i can relate.. and its scary when you just sit back and look at what you are thinking from a 'normal' persons point of view.

    anyway, me just rambling on there. that poem was amazing... i'm sure you alot of people can relate to it. I aint gonna bother saying be happy.. lol. cos you in this frame of mind .. but anyway. this is getting long. lol. take care.

    anasha . x

  • 19 years ago

    by Jacob Perry

    i like this alot and it hits how i usually feel pretty close on the head heres to hoping you feel better

  • 19 years ago

    by Jacob Perry

    you siad in response to one of my peoms that it was as if i wrote it about you now i have the same feeling i lkoved this poem and i gave it a 5/5 amazing work keep it up your an amazing poet

  • 19 years ago

    by Maz

    Huny I know whatyou mean, its always hard to 'truly' express your emotions, but youve dun a really powerfull job here! Please keep writing ok, and stay safe

    xX MAZ Xx

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