Suicidal Lullaby

And I'm hoping for an answer that requires lots of pain.
I'm hoping that you'll tell me that I'm just a bit insane.
I'm praying that the future will hold a bit more light.
And maybe, just maybe, I can die a bit tonight.

I'm giving up my heart for a bit of common sense.
I was paid with just a penny but I don't care a penny less.
I did what I do best and I caused some mass confusion.
Don't smile at me, cuz we both know happiness is our favorite illusion.

Cuz I'm dying in the arms of this suicidal lullaby.
drying tears with razorblades when I start to cry.
Knowing that the truth I heard was really just a lie
I'm dying in the arms of this suicidal lullaby.

And I'm wondering if maybe the sun would like to play.
If not I'll just close my eyes and the dark will go away.
I'll break out of loneliness and cause my own despair.
I'll go to hell and back, but I'd rather just stay there.

I threw a dollar in the wishing well and I got all soaking wet.
I placed all my money on an empty losing bet.
I acted out my fantasy and got a nice applause.
Then I painted all my skin in red and slept without a cause.

Cuz I'm dying in the arms of this suicidal lullaby.
Drying tears with razorblades when I start to cry.
Knowing that the truth I heard was really just a lie
I'm dying in the arms of this suicidal lullaby.

And when the morning comes maybe I'll sleep in till ten.
If not I'll just get up and make some early morning chaos again.
I'll disturb you when you sleep, and in the middle of the night
I'll sing to you my beautiful suicidal lullaby.