Screaming from the inside

by Abbie   Mar 31, 2005


Looking in the mirror, I have to admit
Is easier than it was
But now it has been replaced with a new problem
That happens just because.

For no longer do i hate the person
That is staring back in my room
Instead i have a new fear to hide
That I'm scared of showing too soon

I try to hide this fear
And be grateful for the things i have
But the things i don't have keep coming back
Just to watch me cry and be sad

My friends i have now are amazing
They'll be there through thick and thin
But the thoughts from my home keep following me
I just don't want to give in.

I don't want to take advantage
And complain to my friends all the time
So i hide my feelings as well as i can
Hoping they can't see I'm not fine.

But the pain inside is growing
I don't know how much more i can take
I don't like to admit that I'm weak and can't cope.
And anyway, now it's too late.

Too late to show them how i feel
I don't know what to say
How do i start to tell them about
The things that happen everyday.

I should be strong enough to cope with all this
And spend my time helping them instead
But other things keep happening
So this all builds up in my head.

I feel like i need to run away from here
Or scream until i fall to the ground
And just lay there for days on end
Until someone notices I'm not around.

I don't no where to go now
Or who to ask for help.
I'm stuck with the pile of emotions
That are adding to my self doubt.

I hope this feeling won't last much longer
Or that the problems will go away.
And then i can move on from my past,
And learn to love each new day.

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  • 19 years ago

    by Brookeღ

    It's great to have friends to talk to and you would be surprised how much they care! It's so sad you feel this way! Take Care of yourself! Brooke