Tears Mixed With Blood

** Sorry for the crapniess of this poem. I'm just going through some s h i t tonight, and needed to write **

~ Tears mixed with blood ~

I've tried to harm myself again, but I fear its been to long,
The blade is not cutting deep enough, I just cant hold on,
I need to see the blood flow, I crave the end I seek,
But my weapon isn’t serving its purpose, to say the least.

My tears they fall harder, as my blood refuses to flow,
I long to see the crimson seep, and for my pain to go,
But I fear my night of release, has taken a fall,
I know that my blood wont leave me at all.

All I want is to cry from my body, not my eyes,
I want to wash away all of my daily lies,
I need the blade to cut me, to put me in my place,
To free my soul once again, form its darkest place.

But I fear this night is never ending, my body will not bleed,
Does my heart not realize that the blood flow I truly need,
I need to escape the nightmare that is now my life,
And for this, I can only rely on my blood stained knife.

I need to relax, for my tears to mix with my blood,
But I know this night no blood shall seep, its not good,
My night will last forever, or ‘til I feel the blades scream,
I shall not sleep until my body wakes from my bloodless dream.