5 yEaRs LaTeR...

I was in love once
with someone i thought i knew,
and i was fool enough
to think everything he told me was true.
but everything he told me
turned out to be a lie,
i felt like I'd been stabbed a thousand times
and all i could do was cry.
but i don't hold him responsible
for my pain anymore,
for it was me who had it coming
i opened that door.
i allowed myself to trust
i allowed myself to hope,
and now 5 years later
I'm still finding it hard to cope.
i thought at first it would never die
that my feelings would always remain,
but i realized not long after that
from this i had nothing to gain.
we shared some good times
and some bad,
but i like to remember him
by the good times we had.
it still gets hard sometimes
but i get by,
and i think when i see him again
i will still want to know why.
but i don't hate him now
and i doubt i ever could,
for he taught me many things in life
that people often should.
he taught me how to laugh and cry
he taught me how to care,
he showed me my feelings and emotions
that i never knew were there.
he was my best friend
and at times so much more,
but i think now it is the time
for me to close that door.
to truly let go
and finally move on,
to me he's just a memory
and in my heart he'll never be gone!