Fall

It's like your happy, but you still have that pain in your heart, like the sad refuses to just completely go away, like you want to hold ur head high and let urself fall, but you've spent so long climbing your way up that you can't even see the bottom, and you can't go back, but you think you have to, whatever it is that's hurting you will be fixed if you just go there, so it's live like this, hurting day by day, or fall back down, even though you don't know what will happen, sometimes I think it's worth the risk, sometimes I can't bare the thought