This doesn't feel right

This feeling of worthlessness
Running threw my viens
Just trying to live life
is too much of a strain

Thinking its all over
Knowing i'm not going on tonight
I don't know why
But this just doesn't feel right

I'm sitting here cutting
Seeing,Believing, and screaming
You're unaware of this
You're all there dreaming

Or so I thought
A total lie
I'm crying now
I don't think i want to die

You open the door
And look at my face
I would figure the look
would be one of utter distaste

But tears fell down
And you ran to me
And held me so close
you wouldn't let me go free

You knew i was going to make it
You trembled, I cried
You whispered in my ear
"I'm glad you didn't die"

I sit there hightened in wonder
And watch you sit and cry
But even this feels wrong
i mumble "Why didn't i die?"

***I don't know how i got the idea for this...it came to me...***