Gone

Every things gone
That was supposed to stay
I don't know what to do
I'm never going to be OK

Every time I shut my eyes
I see you smiling next to me
Id give up everything
For us to just be

But no matter what
I wont be alright
Ive stopped struggling
Given up my fight

I guess I'll be what you say
Not fight for who I am
You're like every other guy
But I never fell so hard for them

To you I'm a liar
Also I'm a no good cheat
I manipulate people
So vein a promise I could never keep

Ive walked across glass for you
Put aside my happiness
And the moment I speak out
I get all of this

You'll always get your way
While I sit here and die
Ive given up it all
My happiness, my pride

You think all these things of me
That aren't true
But with how you are
I'll never be able to show you

You wonder why all my friends
Are filled with hate
Its because God
Is who you try to immitate

Ive put up with so much of you
They just cant see why
You seemingly
Always make me cry

You've hacked my things
Recorded every one of my words
Then made ME say I'm sorry
So many times the word seems absurd

You've called me names
Then bragged about things you're going to do
Like bone your exes
I still don't know what Ive done to you

I sat here crying
Saying to myself at least it makes him happy
As you've hurt me more
Making my heart tired and sappy

Then you dare to tell me more
How you and your ex just cuddled
Then wonder why I'm so hurt
As you sit there stupidly befuddled

So now baby, why don't you go be with hannah
Or maybe ashley
You seem to like them
So much more than me

Ive given up my friends
Ive stopped cutting me
Ive given up my pride
Don't so much more than you wish to see

And I still love you
Even after you've hurt me so
Id be with you only if you'd change
Otherwise I'll learn to let go

*A poem for my beloved Steve*