I remember when i was five,
i was flying on eagles wings,
i felt so alive,
untouchable...invisible..on top of the world!!,
i became a teen,
and guess what, that all changed,
i was not on top of the world anymore..instead i was stuck in between,
my mom became one,
i had nothing to do because we only had one car,
yet, she could still go out and have fun?
what do i have to do,
for you all to notice me again?
take of my clothes and dance in front of you?
get into more fights at school,
conform and start buying ugly name brand clothes,
just so i can be called popular and cool,
every time i get stuck in a rut,
forget all the counseling,
look at my wrists,and add one more cut?
let you know i throw up all i eat,
stomaches concaving, do not get more than four hours of rest,
physically broken down so much, i can not stand on my own two feet,
i know dad has been gone long,
but i know you are stronger than this,
and i KNOW this can not be wrong,
i am sure all this will continue,
and when it gets to be to much,
i will take a look at life\'s menu,
look all the way at the bottom of the list,
i will take a plate of suicide please,
pop out both my wrists,
now...i feel a sudden thirst,
it will be on a sunday,
the year be 2005...yes..sunday may 1st,
i will take that nice sharp knife,
and i will owe it to you mummy and friends,
if you do not notice i am human soon,
i will take this and end my own life...
