Why cant i get over you?

I may put on a smile but inside I'm crying,
inside I'm dieing
i cry my self to sleep
an i cry in my dreams
i hear a sad song an thin of you an then i cry sum more
i cant cry at school not on the outside anyway
but inside my heart is aching
my heart is breaking
and when i see you i just wanna hug you an kiss you,
but when i realize that i cant do that and that i cant be with you every day i just wanna cry
i just wanna lay down an die
no words can describe how i feel about you or how much it hurts not to be with you
and even though every time you see me I'm smiling
I'm crying a river inside jus for thinking of you!

i know that this isn't really a proper poem but i just had to get some feelings of my chest and it would really help me if you could leave some messages for me or something!