The Pain Cutters Feel

Mommy doesn't know my fear
My brother doesn't care
My sisters wouldn't understand
Life isn't always fair

I wish I could take it all away
This pain that will never heal
I play it off like I'm all great
So they don't know how I feel

I wish they could know
Of how I hate this life
Instead of being happy
I chose to turn to the knife

I try and try again to stop
But it never seems quite right
It's like the blade is calling me
To disappear into the night

What I do is sad and wrong
But I know others do it too
Why do we like this pain?
Don't let this happen to you

Others really care for us
That's what we'd like to think
I see a world with happiness
Then's it's gone in just a blink

Others just don't get it
They called me a "freak"
But they wouldn't understand
They think it's attention we seek

This poem has a hidden truth
And if you've never known
The pain cutters feel inside
That's because it's never shown.

This is true... people that haven't had a past with cutting don't ever seem to understand how it feels.