Too many sleepless nights
because of too many memories
All of which are horrid
Will anything good ever come of this?
I ask myself a question often
What would i be doing now
If none of this had ever happened?
And my answers just stream out
I would be soundly sleeping
Not wasting my life away
Trying harder at school
And not trying so hard to be cool
i wouldn't be hiding my wrists under a jumper
I would be out of this mask I am burdened with
I just wanna stop thinking
about everything in my life
It can’t change i know it can’t
But i want it too so much I DO
every time i think
it's always about people hanging themselves
and these people look like me
Why did you abuse me??
it could have been someone else
someone good at karate
Maybe they could’ve stopped u
U DESPERATE PRICK I HATE U
Sometimes when i think
Of what my life could be
Without this INTERRUPTION
It seems so much more peaceful
I went downhill and stopped at the bottom
I have to climb that hill again
I'm running out of time
don't think I'm going to make it
such a long walk
too many obstacles
eyes bloodshot from lack of sleep
wrists crimson from my darkest hours
Self esteem is lower than ever
Compliments cant fix this wound
Cut so deep i want it to keep going
Cut me all way through so i can stop living
It might be the only answer
my choice, relieve me from this torture
I had a life, AND IT WAS GOOD
Starting to get it sorted out
But i fell back down that same hill again
all because you showed your face
a punch to the stomach
and a hit to the nose
i told the cops, because i was scared
not this time, i will fight back
i will take away everything you stand for
like what you did to me
Every option in the world
JUST WANNA END IT ALL
(C) Lucy Green
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