Close to my Heart

Its been almost four years already
and I still don't understand why,
Why did you have to kill yourself?
Why did you have to die?

So many people loved you
you had so much to live for.
You were like my big brother,
it was you who I adored.

Your death had a huge affect on my life
and I think about you everyday.
You must have had a hard time,
but I wish you could've stayed.

You always seemed so happy
but I guess inside you were falling apart.
I'll treasure the good times we had
and hold them close within my heart.