Death to us by Suicide

Sitting here
in this room
crying crimson
feeling hurt

holding my blade
just sharpened the edge
hoping this day
will be my last

my best friend is gone
couldn't handle her life
her mum was a drunk
because her dad hit his wife

she hung herself
atop a tree
a far stretched branch
over the beautiful sea

it tears me up inside
to think that you aren't here
can't stop crying
crying my crimson tears

i have so many fears
now that you are gone
so little hopes
or dreams
like the best years of my life
just gone

things are only getting worse
ever since you left me alone
no one i can trust
just nothing left
feeling empty inside

i will never ever forget
when i saw you just swinging
why did i have to find you
I SHOULDN'T OF SEEN
blood red clothes
just like my tears
rope so thick
eyes so open

you had an expression upon your face
a tormented and twisted and horrified look
like you changed your mind but it was too late

your mum and dad, they didn't care
i was talking to you for hours in that coffin
i wouldn't leave
i thought you would just wake up and this would all just be a dream!!
but i was mistaken!!

now here i am 3 years on
still can't handle that you've gone
still crying tears of crimson and slashing at my wrists hoping one day i will die of suicide too
just like you!!!

(C) Lucy Green

~~I know it was long and thank you for reading it, it is a weird poem, but it means ooo much to me, so thank you!~~