Addiction

I have to have it
This much I know is true
And if I don't get it
I don't know what I will do

Its gone beyond my control now
The desire I can no longer hide
Its taken away all I have
Even my dignity and my pride

With it I know I can't live
But I can't seem to leave it alone
Its the elixir I need to survive
This addiction seems to have grown

I have tried many times to control it
But the remedy is always short lived
The longing to indulge is out of control
My life I would gladly give....

For just one more taste of the freedom
No need to medicate my soul
Just wake each day and be happy
And let my love for life grow

But instead I am trapped in this hell
A purgatory of narcotics divine
A drug that is so addictive and strong
The very worst of its kind

One dose and it becomes irresistible
A need that must be met
An uncontrollable urge to get lost
A propensity to forget

Dissolutely I chase after it
Knowing I'll never win
Wishing I would just get over it
But always going back again

I hate what you have done to me
Allowing me to love you so
You let me become addicted to you
And now I can't let go

Each day I grow to suffer more
From this misery and sorrow
But I just have to hope and pray
It will be better tomorrow