Circles

She sits there staring
Wanting to start
Longing for all of this
To stay in her past
Maybe if she doesn't touch
Just looking will be enough
But the longer she looks
She re-kindles her love.

For so long she's tried so hard,
To forget this place.
Never quite knowing what to do,
To erase all trace.
Its always lurking,
In the back of her mind.
Haunting her memories,
Maybe she'll forget in time.
Deep down she knows,
That this is not true.
As she holds it in her hand,
She knows what to do.

Too many times she's been here,
And too many times she's tried
To forget the things that she does
As it touches her skin she sighs.
Not strong enough, again to cope.
The pain in her life has got to much
She needs to relieve it somehow
Maybe just a touch will be enough?

As her skin is pierced,
Her troubles float away.
No longer do they haunt her,
Or stand in her way.
The marks on her skin,
Will show her constant pain.
Just enough not to kill her,
But will stay all the same.
The relief lasts long,
Enough for her to sleep.
Knowing in the morning,
Again she will weep.

Why couldn't she just have looked?
Why did she have to touch?
Now she'll have to start again,
And hide the thing she trusts.
It's taken so long to get this far
And now it's all dripped down
She's stuck in a mindless circle
Crying, yet she makes not a sound.