Trying to find a reason

Sitting here trying to find things to get happy over
but that is getting harder
trying to find a reason to live
but am coming up with nothing
tired of what this life has to offer me
tired of trying so hard to only be on the bottom
why try so hard to end up being nothing
laying in bed at night tears start to flow
asking myself whats wrong with me
god i can came up with million things
i wish everything just went so easy
but i know that will never happen
why can't people like me for me
why can't they except me
am i all that different
people ask so much from me
if only they knew
they think i am stupid
when they hear that I've overdosed
it makes em think even more different about me
so here i am standing in the cold
trying to find out my reason for live