You know that thing... 'pain'?
that's what you have put me through,
the thing that is engraved deep into my heart,
the thing that burns in my eyes that once twinkled but are now misty.
The thing that locks my confidence away,
that steals each breath of happiness i breath,
it twists my aims and decisions,
it confuses my emotions and visions.
You know that thing...'pain'?
that's what you created for me,
the thing that causes me to scream inside,
to tear my mind away with sharpened tears mixed of dread.
The thing that bruises my every will,
my determination is hiding away, in the darkness, afraid,
it falls on me just like the rain,
it attacks me over and over again.
You know that thing...'pain'?
that's why i block you out of my life,
the thing that echo's in my soul every moment,
the thing that always chants malicious words.
I pine for a way to be free of this,
i desperately need an antidote for the illness broken,
i hide it away, acting like nothings wrong,
when it's hurting so much and has been for so long.
You know that thing...'pain'?
that's the definition of 'association with you',
the thing that has taught me a valuable lesson,
but also worn me down into something pathetic.
I feel the beat of the music vibrating in my stomach,
the tears feel cold as they roll down my cheeks,
i visualize you laughing and smiling, it's all a lie,
i wish the memories of you would die.
You know that thing...'pain'?
that's it, you remember now? you realize what you've done?!
the thing that causes more damage than anything,
the thing that makes even the stars cry at the thought of it,
No more chances, no more i-forgive-you's,
I've permanently changed, look in my eyes, you'll see it like ingredients,
'pain, suffering, doubt and hate runs through all her veins',
that is what this sweat, mature, funny girl contains.
