You know i miss you

I'm sitting in this chair waiting for you to come back, three days of disappointment, three nights of crying, my world has been crumbling since you've been gone.
i cant help but wonder if you really want me, i know i want you more than i want life, trying to hold it all inside, trying not to cry, i feel so alone , i feel so unloved,screaming at myself every night wishing you didn't leave. theres no way to contact you, no way to talk to you. i have been praying you'll call me one day and ask if I'm OK. truth is you left when i needed you the most and i know its not your fault. I'm so stressed and so frustrated i just want to strangle myself. being without you is like a rain forest dying up turning into a desert with no food and no water to survive, our love was like the wind always free to say what we wanted and always passionate with love.

Eastan please i miss you please come back i locked myself in my room its been three days now and I'm still locked in here