My Own Hell

-I let myself smile and feel alright
-No one ever knew I thought about dying in the night
-I tried to hide it, even from myself
-No one would ever listen to my cries for help
-It's time to go, I've been in pain too long
-Since you left, I've lost the will to be strong
-I'm tired of the nightmares and the hate
-I'm tired of living in the sad world you create.
-I sit here in fear of your angry voice
-I'd leave this hell in a second if I had the choice.
-I feel like a broken angel with my wings torn apart
-Now all I have is a hole in my heart
-I've tried my whole life to just fit in
-But they hate me so much I can't even begin
-But who can blame them, I hate myself too.
-In my life, friends have been so few
-I cry alone for my meaning in life
-I can't seem to find it, so I pick up the knife
-I tried to tell you, but I couldn't figure out how.
-I'm lying in the grave, and I bet your sorry now.