Slow

I'm breaking slowly
I'm loosing my breath
I have tons of friends
So why am I so lonely
I try to capture the little bit of light I see
But my bucket has a hole in it
It's not worth it anymore
I would feel guilty about hurting people
But no one knows
One might ask how a smile so bright
Cries so painful
But somehow I manage
I see a shimmer of hope
But it is soon shattered by drudging thoughts of hopelessness
Anxious thoughts await my awakening
And refuse to lull me to sleep
Worry and stress glue thoughts of anger in my head
Time is going fast
And I am going to slow