I'm hurting deep inside,
No one will ever know the amount of tears I cried.
I've finally realized I'm on my own,
And it hurts horribly to know that I am utterly alone.
I feel betrayed,
I know that I will never be OK.
I'm hurting deep inside,
No one can understand why I lied.
I was scared of being hurt,
I touched the flame and now I'm burnt.
I don't know what everyone wants me to say,
All I know is my tears have soaked the covers on which I lay.
I'm hurting deep inside,
I know now why I have always tried to hide.
The truth causes nothing but pain with me,
And the man I love just has to see,
There will never be true happiness with me.
I don't want to fly,
I want to keep giving this a try.
But if things get any worse,
I'm afraid I'll lose my strength,
Give up everything and lie,
And tell him I want to say goodbye.
My trust has been broken,
In pieces it lies,
It's amazing how hard I've tried.
But in the end it doesn't matter,
I've climbed to the top of my emotional ladder.
I'm sick of this roller coaster of emotions,
Sometimes I feel loneliness in my only option.
I will proceed,
I don't want to give up on the one I love.
But if I lose all my self control,
And lose my beloved,
I'll always watch him,
In my place up above.
