A memory flashes in my mind, triggering me
I see you so clearly that it tears away at the seams of my soul
Your face so real I can almost feel the touch of you, horrifying
A smile that haunts me, breaking me away from the present
Lost in a labyrinth of past occurrences, fighting you, keep away from me
You stand too close no matter how many times I press replay. I am never free
I turn away. I try to run, trying to outsmart you
Perhaps I am not meant to win the game, clever one-sided rules
A hand, I turn. Two hands, I struggle. Your face, I stop
Caught in your web I know there is no escape
Acceptance of an awful kind, hating myself and hating you
Seeing your face light up, you devastate me, all these things you put me through
It hurts to be standing here experiencing this moment
Another light inside my heart switching off and disappearing
I can feel it beating so loudly, shouting at you from within
My voice is lost again. It hurts so much. Please end this for
I am suffocating from the pressure, dying in excruciating pain
