Want to die now

Don't try and save me
I've had Enough of it
Telling you I am fine everyday
Is not how i want to live

Fake smiles come easily
now that I've had practice
at school, at home, everywhere
I feel like I am plastic

Shiny plastic with no feeling
Cold and empty too
I don't think I want these feeling anyways
They just leave me feeling blue

I want to pull out a knife
And stab it in my heart.
I want to cut, cut so deep
I want to slice my wrist apart

I want to die today
Or even tomorrow will do
Because I can't stand spending a whole lifetime
Wondering how to pull through.

**me typing away because everything in my life is going wrong and there are only twos ways I no that help and one of them is writing.**