Feeling empty

I bottle all the tears inside
like i never had anything to hide
my heart is shallow, empty, and black
from all the knives stabbing my back

all these nights i stay up and cry
wishing that someday i'd die
my memories fade they never last
i try hard not to remember my past

my body's now emotionless
my soul is gone, i'm in a mess
i'm suffocating in this air
but now i know nobody will care