Why?

Why? this is the question i ask myself everyday.
why? why did he choose me?
why? why did i ave to be there when i was?
why? why am i leaving him control my life?
why? why cant i forget the past?
why? why are some people so sick minded that they have to abuse a young child?
it was eight years ago but i can still see him.
why? why wont he die even if its just in my mind?
why? why cant i forget???
WHY?