What I hold inside

I really try so hard but it seems not please.
I bleed inside and really die. You seem as
you don't even notice it's really there. I want
to tell you everything. But to me would you even
listen or care or even try to bare for whats really
there????

I'm yelling inside and all depressed. And i'm
suppressed by this loneliness.I feel the drops
coming down my face they can't stop flowing
this pain will not erase.

This curse on me will not let me flee.
It feels like I'm in a cage day by day
constantly in some type of mortality.

I feel like doing everything to hurt my self
I get this rage of total insane. I feel like
punching the wall. Just numb inside
I will not lie this truth untold in many
words will say of this unknown damage inside.

You still don't see what I mean inside the
harm you seem to cause. The nothing less
I seem to be. Inside I hurt more than you
will ever see. I feel like an outcast from
you.

This child inside me doesn't seem to bloom.
The smiles I hold are really fake inside
of them are major disgrace. My head
explodes from the damage inside.

But, will this ever stop how I feel inside?
I really don't know until then
I have YET to find out....
But when I find out I will
learn for myself