I've seen my walls crumble around me so many times before and all you've done is stand there not even give me a glance. I can't move on without you. I can't breathe nor sleep without you. My world could crumble on top of me and you'd walk away. I want you to know that I do love you. More than you'll ever know. I hate how I feel but I can't hide it any longer. For years I've hidden the truth from you and its been killing me since day one. I finally told you just the slightest bit of how I felt and you ran scared. Why is it so bad that I care for you? You don't understand how I feel and you never will. But couldn't you at least accept the fact that I do care? I can't take this any longer. I've come to the point again that I want to slit my wrists and just end all of my suffering once and for all. I can't take it any more. Please God I know I don't ask you for much but grant me this one last request. Give me a way for it to end. I can't go on living in this hole. The hole so deep that I can't even see myself anymore. Its so dark in here sometimes that I get scared. Scared that I will never be able to climb out of here and save myself from falling into a familiar hole once again.
*_*_*Hey I just wrote this because I been planning my suicide for a couple weeks and I thought maybe I could get some help from you, the readers, because the reason I don't just slit my wrists right here and now is because I have that f**king feeling in the back of my head screaming to me that I shouldn't do it but the voice is so small that my mind overcomes it. When you read this please comment and if you want to vote on what you think*_*_*
