For one single second, in your arms, I was whole again
No more hiding, no more lying, promised myself that it was over
I would never again cry these tears or feel this awful pain
But that all ended the second that you left my sight
Left me hanging, hopelessly falling, over and over, without hope
I died in my mind without anyone there, for the final time that night
The next morning I found myself still lying where you left me
No blood, nor scars, no pain or hate, I was free from it all
I ran through the trees, where I was all alone, so nobody would see
Since that day not one of you has uttered a word for me to hear
I wonder does this new me make you shudder, I thought I was better
When I touch your soft cheeks, you turn away in stone cold fear
No longer do you smile at me, your eyes gaze straight past
I found my freedom, why can’t you be happy for me just this time
Fought and won, but still alone, but the depression didn’t last
Crying empty tears as you pass me by, all alone, in my head
My thoughts return, I am afraid again, of you, of me, of them
I cut my arm, not blood fell down, I am not free, but I am dead
