I'm gone...

There aren't enough
cuts on my arm to focus
There aren't enough
Tears in my eyes to know this
You're telling me things
That I already know
And taking me places
I don't want to go.
But my mind just gets a little hazy
and these feelings get a little crazy
So I sit at the foot of my cold bed
with my hands in place upon my head
I'm trying to remember
Just what I've done
And know if what happened
is some sort of pun
My body aches
my mind awakes
and something isn't right.
this depression is overwhelming
i just wanna die
I want to waste away
I just want to cry
and have fate take me today
I only stay here for the time
to keep my friends
all in line
but as soon as they can fend for themselves
I'm taking myself off of this shelf
i'm sick of the lying
sick of the tears
sick of the fighting
sick of the fears
but just a bit longer
i have to hold out
i stay for my friends.
just them no doubt..
But once they don't need me
once they can fend
I leave and you'll see me
trying to mend.
My mind is all hazy
and my body it aches
this world is so crazy..
I'm gone for christ sake..