I want too cut so bad

I want to cut so bad
but I've already quit
i want to hold the knife at least
and maybe just cut a little on my wrist

I'll carve your name so deep
hoping i will die
and when you see my wrist
you would have a big surprise

you have no idea what you put me threw,
almost ever single day
you make life so hard
and you make sure I'm not okay

are you sick inside
do you need help
all you ever think about
is only yourself

you made my life so bad
you broke my heart in pieces
too bad you aren't always there
to make sure i was okay you didn't see that

so just thank you fro all you've done
i don't want to live this life
so rite now i will end it
i will stab myself with the knife

~not really like i said i quite but this is how i am feeling rite now it was kinda stuck in my head ... not the best I've done but thanks for your vote and comments!~