Courage

I pick it up then put it down,
I'm pacing my room round and round,
Could I couldn't I?
Will I won't I?

You see the pain is real,
And the tears I feel,
But the blade doesn't cut,
I don't have "that" gut,

The blood keeps flowing,
The heart never stops going,
No matter how much,
I want the knife to touch,

The courage I need,
Left with the life I lead,
So I'll use my tears,
To express my ever-lasting fears.....