Lost Will

Today i cut too deep.

My life it aches and weeps.

I cut to the end where i sleep forever.

Hoping the lord will save me.
I am at a stand still now.

Every ounce of pain is coming out.

Every thought and feeling is
coming at me all at once.

I want to rid this life because this pain is just too much.

Suicide is my only option now.

Death will be there waiting.

This pain will forever be gone in which i was hating.

Grasping happiness it has let itself loose.

So now am done forever as i tie the noose.

So as i write this, i bleed hoping for an end.

I'm waiting for this pain to die so i shall descend.

My soul shatters in the glimpse of an eye.

Here as i write this poem i wait to die.

I'm asking the lord for forgiveness although i know he wont.

Thoughts within are pulling at me with do's and don'ts.

Sadness has taken over and is forever changing me.

Above this world i see new life with no pain nor misery.

Death is calling now, he wants me to follow.

I drift away as my life is slowly swallowed.