I still love him so...

I just told you today that I was pregnant
It hurt me deep inside when I heard you cry
I wanted to reach over the phone and hold you close to my heart
we did our best, but our best was not good enough we barely even tried

I remember before when I was pregnant with your baby
we were so happy
although it hurt me to know that you really did not care
when you said it was not yours what else could I say

Your brother Aaron put stuff in your head
told you it must be someone else's baby
and not yours
oh how that hurt me so

I seriously wish things would have been better
there isn't a day that goes by that your not on my mind
I still love you so much
there are days I ache for your soft caring touch
god I loved you Ryan so damn much and still do today

You are always in my heart
and sometimes I wish this baby could be yours that I am having now
so god please help me with this heartache
help me lord to realize we were just not meant to be

my life is going good now
my current boyfriend treats me good
he does stuff for me that you would never do
but it felt oh so good when you wished me the best
I guess it hurt me so to hear you say that
in my soul I wanted to reach out and hold you close and never let you go
and to this day I still do not want to let you go
for you remain silently in my heart
this I tell noone how I feel
not even you Ryan
Ryan you do not know how much I still love you so
cause I will never tell you
it will only hurt me so

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