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by Robyn Thomas Apr 10, 2005 category : Sadness, depression / other
I am the essential wallflower The one that's there but never talks The one everyone spreads rumors about The one everyone mocks But deep down inside I feel a fire burning I can hear you talk about me And with every comment I'm learning I have to transform myself To be the perfect image I look at myself in the mirror Where everything is painfully vivid I diet and eat only the smallest things I buy new different clothes And from deep down inside me The new girl finally rose Now I was totally different And totally OK Now I don't have to be talked about Every night and every day I read new magazines And I buy new jewelery But nothing, just nothing Helps me get rid of the old me And still I hear people Talk about me, day by day But this time the comments aren't the same They seem to think I'm not OK I try to convince them But at the same time, myself "I'm OK, really! Just don't worry yourselves!" But as the days grow longer I grow more weary This new girl is tiring me out I begin to feel dreary But what could be wrong with me? I'm the skinniest of them all! I'm the prettiest too, right? I've done all the boys who come to call! I have the most expensive clothes! I wear the best dye in my hair! I only have the nicest shoes! The finest jewelery I wear! I convince myself Day by day, year by year I'm the best...I'm different now There isn't anything to fear "Yes...yes that's it... I really am OK..." I think this in my padded cell Year by year, day by day **there is a lesson to learn in this poem...**