Train of Thought

Looking to the West and seeing the East
Feeling the anguish before I’m released
The pins are pricking me, making me bleed
Empty whispers, for forgiveness I plead

I’ve never felt so alone,
And never fallen this hard,
Has it always been this cold?
Or is that just my heart?

Loving my life as it seeps away,
Knowing what I have as it dies
Seeing my mistakes, knowing they don't matter
And wishing I could live them again

Faster and faster, I chortle along
The sound echoes in this desolate place
How could I have got it so wrong?
How much colour have I lost from my face?

Loving my life as it seeps away,
I sit on the blank blissful wave,
Knowing what I have as it dies,
Rest in peace, what’s left of my life,
Seeing my mistakes, knowing they don't matter,
Cos I’ve been damned or cursed, I think it’s the latter,
And wishing I could live them again,
I’m at the last station and get off my train.