I will never

I keep crying inside,
because of how you talk to me
i act like it never happened,
then i cry myself to sleep
but I'm trying to be nice,
I'm doing my best
but your just like them...
just like the rest
i thought you'd be different...
but obviously your not
i guess i hate cupid now..
.he missed his best shot
this love was never real,
your words just played with me
why couldn't this love be true..
why Lord? not let this be?
but you left me for your own problem...
that i thought thats i could help
but this problem was why you left me
so i sat there and just dealt...
dealt with the pain
and this broken heart
dealt with the sorrow
but not the dieing part
i would never kill myself for you
do you think Ive gone mad?
hah i would never hurt myself for YOU
was this all part of your plan
cus you knew how id end up
how I'm a cutter and i would not stop
you knew if you broke this fragile thing...
and how my life would come to a halt

but look i still stand here
and watch you slip away
but i don't care at all anymore
for your blue skies will soon turn gray...