To be a good mom, friend, lover, worker, and so on.
It seems like NOTHING I can do is ever right.
What the hell am I doing wrong?
I try to teach my boys from right and wrong
it just seems like they don't listen.
One just stands in the shower and still stinks after he's out and doesn't brushes his teeth, and has the attitude of a 16 year old boy?
Can you say puberty has hit?
Ask him to do a few things and he rolls the eyes at me.
I wish I could put his head through the wall when he does that, I won't ever do it, but my god, that is disrespectful to me.
The other son thinks he's the boss of everything and everyone and tells everybody what to do.
And when he does it, he hollars.
My partner says"hey baby, the rut is on, let's get it on" I am starting to notice that it is always on his time and never on my own or when we are together alone.
Well guess what boys?
One of these days Nobody is going to be home to cook, clean, do your laundry
The cats and I will be GONE where nobody can find us
Who will put you to sleep every night?
Who will do your laundry almost everyday?
Who will cook your dinners and suppers for you?
My almost 6 year old that it's mom job to clean up after his mess and not him.
He's going to be a typical male, to expect the woman to clean up after the man.
I am sorry but I see something wrong with this picture.
My almost 11 year old is on the verge of crying all the time because of the little brother getting at him so much by hollering and screaming at him.
And when you have a partner that works 50 hours a week, he is providing for his family in so many ways, but isn't in other ways.
I am sick and tired of all this B.S.
I want to run away and join the circus!
Destiny and her two flying cats sounds good to me.
I have been in love with another man for the last year now and I can't even get him to notice me because he just wants to remain friends with me.
I absolutely hate this!
I want to rip out all their jugglars but at the same time, totally 100% cry my eyes out.
I know what's wrong with me, am I taking it out on my partner and children?
At least I am seeing the error of my ways and am going to make the changes in my life to stop.
Other people in my family will NEVER say I am sorry for things THEY've said and done in the past and WON'T let things go.
Some people in my family will die very lonely and will be condemned to hell when they pass away. St. Peter will not let them collect $200 to let them pass GO.
When I get depressed, I eat.
This has been such a bad day for me.
All I wanted to do is eat.
I have to stop this NOW!
Can anybody see the common denominator here?
As of this moment right now in my life, MEN SUCK!
Or is it me, all of this reflecting back on me that I am a bad mom and a bad person?
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If any of you out there are single mothers like me with partners and two children, especially boys, have you ever had a day like this? I would never EVER hurt my boys in any way, shape or form. But my god, don't you wish you could just shake them and knock some sense into your partner's head and your children's heads? Anywho, I guess this is another Blowing off steam sort of thing. If you read it all, thanks for taking the time to read it.
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