Alone

All i want
is to be alone
by myself
where i can not worry about what you think of me
where i can say what i want
and do what i want.
and think for hours on end.

i want peace,
i want serenity.
and i want my room to be empty
except for me.
typing along on my computer,
singing along with the music,
you say is stupid.
i just want
to be alone

all i want
is to be with you
to be among
the laughter and fun
to feel accepted.
and feel included.
and feel like I'm not
wasting my night
all alone again.

i want to feel
that one feeling.
like i have a balloon
in my lungs.
and its inflating,
making me want to shout
making me want to laugh
loud and strong
forever.

but I'm not like you guys
i can never be
ill never be like any of you.
I'm just me,
and you cant accept it.
and thats why i want to be

alone.