Its still not right

I finally told you everything
thats more than i ever thought i could
I didn't think i had it I'm me
but I'm glad i told you
you were there for me
not many people are anymore
when i actually need them way more than before.

But as long as some one knows
that makes things alright
then why do i feel so lonely every night?

i still think about doing it
but I'm afraid that just might work
is that what i really want?
to let the light in me stop burning?
just to let me die slowly?
I don't know what i want anymore
I'm afraid of the truth, lies, life...