There is a monster inside of me, she's in control,
My body tries to reject but mind is not my own,
Slithering through my soul stirring up the past,
Women of whom I tried to love, it never did last,
Spreading her wings obscuring my eyes, only to see,
What she allows me, the heartbreaking pain of love,
Agonizing visions of what I did wrong, the woman's view,
So to pursue love again I cannot survive relenting pain,
Serpent reminds me of my faults in the eyes of others,
That as a man I cannot fulfill a woman's desire or needs,
Looked upon as an object, unattractive never being desired,
She's controlled my mind for so long that I shall never succeed,
Would share my inner soul and thoughts just wanting the same,
Serpent deep inside letting me go onward knowing I look insane,
Relationship growing thinking we reached the point of no return,
Passions and sensuality at a fevered high, mother serpent strikes,
Forlorn and rejected I succumb, the affliction of not as a whole man,
Casting feelings and emotions to the back of her mind, rejected again,
For not being able to perform as I should, a most hideous curse indeed,
A most venomous serpent is she, rejoicing in my horrific inner pain,
Relentless in my effort to dislodge her from my body I have yet to win,
Drink or drugs do not harm but intensify her ever present mind control,
Mother serpent has made me her private slave, a temple never to leave,
Knowing that a woman shall never accept me for I am not a whole man.
