Always

Always hurting, even when everything is fine
And I’m always wishing for you to be mine
Always dreaming of some where that’s real
Where I can be alone with these emotions I feel

Always thinking of all those things I could say
And I’m always living in memories of yesterday
Always feeling alone, crying more empty tears
Turning love and safety into my darkest fears

Always imagining some kind future with you
And I’m always wondering if what you say is true
Always this feeling of being so numb and dead
Everyone around me stains my world blood red

Always hoping that this feeling will soon end
And I’m always thinking of how to make amends
Always feeling guilty for the things I have done
But I am too dead to die, but too stupid to run

Always regretting all the words that I spoke
And I’m always living inside of God’s joke
Always wishing that people would see
I gave up on life when they gave up on me