Here I sit again tonight
Feeling Sweet release
And for one amazing moment
I feel the pain inside me cease,
If you know where this is going
You're welcome to turn back
But I'm just trying to explain to you
It's not sanity I lack,
I'm writing now
The reality of my youth
Read if you like
The cold depressing truth,
I carve a perfect picture
Of my hidden troubled mind
My wrist now matching with my soul
As I let myself unwind,
I write it in my blood
I really make it hurt
Illuminating every cut
Yet still I feel like dirt,
Then hidden under sleeves
Are the scars that always stay
Keeping many secrets
Of the things that I portray,
Laughing at myself
Chocking back the pain
Yes I'm aware of what I'm doing
And no I'm not insane,
The part of me that's laughing
Is laughing cause I'm scared
Sounds screwed up I know
But my conscience is impaired,
You can turn your back
And leave me here alone
At least I know who's faithful now
And who's heart is hard as stone
While you look away
I'm drowning in these tears
They're filling up inside of me
Held back all these years
So before they overflow
This blade will hold them back
But don't be so quick to judge
It's not sanity I lack
