Last Night

I don’t know
What came over me?
Last night.

It started as just
A few fallen tears.
But soon became more
First my ache for blood
And pain.
But was overcome
By an unknown
Yearn for death.

I couldn’t get it out of my mind
Everything I looked at
Flashed images of my body
Lying dead.

The scary thing was,
I thought for sure I
Was going to do it.
I even wrote my
Last goodbyes.

But today,
As I look around.
I see everything I would
Have missed.

These smiling faces,
Crowded hallways.
Pulling my brother
Out of bed every morning
To make sure we get to school
On time.
Being told to shut up
When we’re talking too much
In seminar,
I would have missed them all.

Realizing these things,
I’m glad I didn’t
Do it.